Interlude Beneath the Starry Sky

Is there a fourth wall in blogging? Is tightly cogent, somewhat private, grammatically perfect writing best? Should you keep everything neat and tidy?

Probably not, during these changing times.

As you can probably tell by the longer title, this post is slightly different. In my Blogging 101 travels, I had the fortune of stopping by along the side of the road, where I encountered Marianne. Her posts bring out the loopy in me, and in the ensuing discussions, everyone’s head spins a bit. It’s fun. You just might like her everyday wisdom and humor, too.

When the ball lands in your court…hit it back!

Shadow

Ever come face-to-face with your shadow side?

In psychological terms, the shadow side refers to repressed feelings, inhibited desires and unacknowledged traits and yearning. Basically, the “undesired” stuff. Letting it loose in public was thought to have negative consequences, and Jekyll and Hyde is an example in extremis, of what you can do when the lights are out. Precise becomes emotional, kindness becomes cruelty and innocence turns into naïveté. We’re all aware of these things, but usually they stay nicely hidden beneath the radar. Until events like an eclipse, or what have you. Like the tidal forces the moon brings to bear on waves of the ocean, celestial events can pull deep-seated tendencies to the surface.

What’s the connection? The thing is, while psychology deals with the deepest reaches of the mind, the scope of spirituality is much vaster: things from different lifetimes and dimensions can meet in an intersection point. I didn’t pay particular attention, while wading through a living nightmare of worst fears and darkest thoughts, of the timing. On both occasions, the goddess Hecate, said to be a primordial being of light and dark, offered me a chance to meet her. I declined, thinking of the practical constraints: “Too much is going on,” “How do I know it’s relevant?” “Surely not now,” and so on. After all, one symptom can have potentially many causes and sometimes things change as you evolve; frustration can mean karmic release, or it can be everyday things, for instance. You slowly learn to identify the innate tendencies and visceral feelings associated with internal events; it’s a bit like prying interweaved strands apart. I watched, also, as many people were brought into direct contact with their worst side, thinking it wasn’t all that unusual for the intense energy.

But now I realize this was a call to connect.

The purpose? Left unexamined, the shadow side is a dormant thing, safe but unutilized, and certainly not understood. Left unchecked, it is possibly a destructive force. But, properly integrated, it is a powerful tool that can help to overcome obstacles. Another thing is once you are awakened, things happen anyway. Whether you choose to take the hands offered to you—though they won’t clear the way—or go it alone, doesn’t change the fact. A bit like the chicken and the egg, but in reverse. I used to think that connecting with these deities, although genuine, was what was causing the events, but instead, there is a “hardware cost” to delaying things in the interest of prudence or awaiting a better time. It does not always mean the situation will be more favorable next time around, and you will have to wait in the interim. Sometimes counterintuitiveness is just the nature of the event.

So next time everything is up in the air, it feels totally wrong and worse than the last? I’ll know it’s Hecate. And on the third strike, I’ll probably find the courage. After all, that’s a pattern, right?

Planets

Do you ever look at the sky?

Now is an interesting time to do so, as, as I recently discovered, Saturn is in Sagittarius. The joys of this position include juxtaposition of freedom and limitation, meant to bring eventual clarity and longevity to the endeavors that mean most to you. It’s also a cosmic coming-of-age if you’re going through the Saturn Return, which occurs approximately every 27–29 years when Saturn returns to the sign it was in when you were born. This intensifies the experience, I would think, as you’re forced to look long and hard at what you really want, and if it is practical in everyday reality. Like the parent that holds an eager child back from running headlong into needless danger; society that restricts outspoken attitudes of anarchy; and karma that turns the wheel of fate in fairness, Saturn forces the free-spirited archer to aim precisely. An arrow is not an explosive, so accuracy is required for success. In this way, efficiency and minimal collateral damage are achieved. Or so goes the theory, anyway.

The exact house Saturn is in on your birth chart determines the arena of your life caught up in this seemingly opposing tug-of-war: in one sense, the area most important to you, which could end up being the foundation of a new or existing career, is also a place of frustration and sometimes confusion about the true nature of things, and reasons. The sky can be the limit, but getting there is the hard part. Interestingly, this dovetails nicely with the energies of ascension this year, where change and transformation seem inevitable. So much is being released everywhere, and consciousness is evolving at an unprecedented rate; it’s funny that when we say that this is an “exciting time to be alive,” we often overlook how challenging the actual process can be.

The other interesting thing is that we are in the midst, or soon to be, of a multi-planet retrograde. This means, among other things, a reversal of the usual energy of each planet; so if Mars represents action, then now might be a sluggish time. Put together, there is a synergistic effect: if you’re feeling limited, restricted and sluggish? Hmm, sort of brings out all the base emotions you might not usually express. Funnily though, natural instinct and obvious solution may not be the best moves at present. It may be you who is out of line. Isn’t that a hard one to swallow? Only it isn’t just you.

So, don’t draw your weapon just yet; keep that bridge intact—you might use it later; for now, hold off on the things that seem to need doing right away. Remember that fog begets clarity eventually.